what I bought in march
and the cognitive dissonance of sharing my clothing purchases while I preach anti-consumption
I’m a big fan of personality tests. I love finding out more about why I am the way I am. It helps me validate that things I might not like about myself are just who I am. I’m an introvert, a highly-sensitive person, an obliger, an INFJ, a Human Design projector, an empath, a Cancer and my love languages are words of affirmation and gifts.
All of those results ring true. However, in the Enneagram, I’m a 4. I don’t want to be a 4. Fours want to be special and unique. I want to not want to be special and unique but if I’m really being honest, I do. This is really coming out in what I want for my wardrobe. I’m no longer satisfied with simple. I want special. I want unique and different.
I’m currently going through the biggest style shift I’ve had in 15 years, from 100% neutral minimalist to colorful creative Copenhagen mom (still workshopping my style description 😂).
I kindof hate that this process is happening now while I have an audience. In general, my philosophy is to appreciate what we have, reuse and rewear, and remember that the next new thing will fade quickly. I absolutely believe that we have an overconsumption problem in this country that we are spreading to the rest of the world. I’d love to be able to show you all either that you can have a wardrobe with just a few simple things, as I did for years and years, or to have already developed this style and be able to show that I’ve had these special items for years and I rewear them often. As
said in her purchase round up yesterday, tracking and sharing my purchases is pretty uncomfortable. I don’t really want to be showing this messy middle, mostly because in the messy middle, I’m experimenting and trying things on literally and figuratively, and also, I’m buying a lot of stuff.And to be honest, it’s not stuff I need. I have enough clothes. It’s stuff I want. Yes, as a form of artistic expression, while trying to be mindful, while buying as ethically as I can, while being financially responsible, and buying mostly secondhand. But still not anything I need.
And with that, let’s talk about what I bought in March, including a purchase made out of frustration, and my crazy plan for my April spending.
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